writing songs

in each day for the last week, i’ve been battling a sleeping problem. i can’t seem to get more than 4 hours of sleep which is sad, because in the same week i’ve been sleepy in the office. that really bites because i got my circadian clock back on track in the prior months and now it’s broken again and i forgot how i fixed it in the first place.

so to battle the lack of sleep, i’ve been trying to write a song which i seem to be unable to do as well. i’m not sure what’s wrong with me so i think i need some professional help.

i was watching a bunch of smashing pumpkins videos when it hit me that i wanted to write the same kind of songs. so i picked up my intellectual guitar and starting visualizing songs while watching the videos. the problem is, even in my mind, i’m a very lousy musician. writing a song in my mind is pretty much the same when i pick up a real guitar.

however, 5 minutes prior to the start of this blog and five minutes after getting attacked by a swarm of ants, i kind of wrote two songs. 1 was a song i’ve been trying to build up since a month ago, then another one which just was a production of my constant murder of the guitar instrument.

this breakthrough made me want to call up my friend so we could do something about these songs but i guess i was too lazy again. it’s easier to write when you’re in the mood. in my case, i’m only in the mood once a week and only during the times that i need to sleep.